I'm Not Afraid To Say That I Am Waiting

In regards to my last blogpost "The Lord Knows Who Your Soul Loves" I put a song at the end called "Hide Your Love Away" by Anthem Lights. In today's culture it is seen as such a cliché or a taboo to save yourself for the one that the Lord has made for you.

But as a Strong Christian Woman who has never been in a relationship and has received so many questions regarding that choice to wait until the love is wakened for a christian gentleman. I love that this song speaks volumes to the regard that waiting for your Prince or Princess is God's plan. Because the truth is the Lord has something so magnificent in store for your life. He knows that someone who is going to be your other half on this earth. That someone who through your love for Jesus you will love each other so wholly.

So if you listened to the song from the last post I highly encourage you to watch this short video on the reasoning behind the song. If you are waiting that is amazing. Don't be afraid to say that you are because in the end the Lord will bless you well and you will be more than happy that you did.

The Lord Knows The One Your Soul Loves...

The Lord Knows Him

"Put not your trust in Princes."-Psalm 146:3

In my earlier teen years I had a fixation on a guy, lets just refer to him as Contender 1, that I thought was very much my ideal guy. Looking back a those moments I can see that while he was the epitome of the christian guy I was looking for he is not the christian guy that the Lord has planned for me in my life. I know that during that time I spent countless moments wondering about the future that could be. When in all actuality I should have been going through that time focusing the most on how I could please the Lord more. 

When I sit and think about it now, I realize that the Lord 's purpose for that time was fulfilled. More often than not we think we know a lot more about our lives than we actually do. So where in the time that I spent invested in someone else who was a little less interested in me I gained a little more patience through such an experience. 

The Lord knows my heart. He knew it then when I was experiencing young love. It is the same for everyone; believers and non-believers alike. The Lord knows your heart. One of my favorite verses to refer back to when thinking about this time in my life and this current single time is, Song of Songs 3:5 "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." 

 As a single christian women I know what it is like to be in love. I was in love, I had that experience. The Lord's plan for my life was not to have a boyfriend or even be in a relationship in the time where he wanted me to be seeking him and growing in his love for me. So you may have experienced something similar or may be experiencing it. Know that the Lord has a plan for your future Husband.

Not every boyfriend or love interest is going to be a contender for your Prince Charming. The Lord has planned out your life from beginning to end and knows him. He knows his heart as well as he knows yours. So if you have not found him yet, thats ok because that just means that neither of your hearts are ready yet. What the Lord wants is for your love to be His. So young love may seem like the most important thing but as christians we know that ultimately all our love is for Jesus and we share our love with those whom we care about dearly. 

As women and simply as christians we strive for that love that is "patient and kind...rejoices with the truth...and always preservers." (1 Corinthians 13:4-7) That is a love made after God's own heart. The love that the Lord has planned for us is perfectly crafted after his own heart and we need only be patient. 

Sure there will definitely be people we fall in love with and it might happen more than once. But the Lord knows when your heart is ready and he will arouse and awaken love in your heart. We will know when the time is right because the Lord will be so present in all of it and it will be a love made after his own heart. 

So my Contender 1is just that, a contender. While I did spend quite a long time loving him he wasn't the one the Lord has planned for me. He still has a place in my life as a brother in Christ but that is all. So until the time is right I will continue to pray to the Lord for my Prince Charming and follow the path the Lord has for me as I pray you will do the same.  

We may stumble...

God, What if I stumble?

Psalm 37:24 says that "If He stumbles he is not down for long; God has a grip on his hand." 

Recently I was talking to one of my friends in my college dorm room about Jesus and His AMAZING love. She was asking me questions and telling me that she wanted to feel that closeness and that warmth that the Lord exudes and it got me thinking...and I decided I had to write about it. My friend went on to tell me that she felt that she was more or less stumbling through her faith and going through the motions instead of feeling it on a heart level. So I began to think about stumbling and it brought me to the question; "God, what if I stumble?" Will I lose the amazing feeling that I get when I feel your presence so strongly in my life? 

So while I was brainstorming I realized that no matter what happens to us, if we fall, the Lord is there to pick us right back up. We need only remember that he is our Saving Grace and he will  meet us in every moment of  our lives even when we  fall into a slump and don't feel him present. 

In psalm 119:165 it says that "For those who love what you reveal, everything fits-- no stumbling around in the dark for them." So with that we know that whatever God reveals to us we know that EVERYTHING fits. We shall not stumble around in the dark if we truly accept all that the Lord reveals. I love that simple fact that with God there is no darkness, only light. So when you truly yearn for the God and you live that everyday you will be consumed in the love and warmth in him. 

The Lord is light and he assures us that we will not eternally stumble around in the darkness. Isaiah 8:14 speaks volumes; "and he will always be a sanctuary; but for both houses of Israel he will be a tone hat causes men to stumble and a rock makes them fall." This tells us that either the Lord is the cornerstone of our lives (28:16) or he is a rock over which we fall. So we have a choice. We can can either choose to put all of our trust in him or we will stumble our way through life in a meaningless way, just simply wondering why we aren't feeling the warmth of the Heavenly Father. 

God says , "Watch closely. I'm laying a foundation, squared and true. And this is the meaning of the stone: A TRUSTING LIFE WON'T TOPPLE. 

Therefore as Christians if our complete trust is in God and not in people, we will have a solid rock of a foundation to place our lives upon and stay. So we put all of our trust in God because he is THE rock and the firm foundation made so that we will not stumble. 

Jeremiah 31:9 says; "Watch we come! They'll come weeping for joy as I take their hands and lead them, Lead them to fresh flowing brooks, lead them along smooth, uncluttered paths so that they will not stumble." The truth of the matter is that the Lord takes our hands and leads us to the fresh flowing well of his word. When we trust fully in him he leads us along uncluttered paths so that we might not stumble. 

So my dear friends if you feel as though you are stumbling and not connecting with Jesus in those warm glimpses into the kingdom know that the Lord is there. He will always be with you in every moment. As Christians we are the body and we are called to live a Godly life. So when we lead that life daily we will feel his warmth and love and those glimpses into the kingdom will only grow until the day where is becomes more than a glimpse but eternity in the Kingdom with the most amazing Heavenly Father. 

Love and Blessings to all of the Sons and daughters of the Kingdom.

Connecting With God On A Personal Level

Have You Ever reached a stagnant point in your walk with the Lord? Did you ever just feel disconnected in a way you could exactly describe? Have you ever just needed reminding how amazing God's love is for you?

It is completely normal to hit that point in your Christian walk where you just get caught in a valley where you feel like you are disconnected. It is not always easy to maintain the mountaintops experiences you have with the Lord. 

The truth is your faith walk is not going to be a series of mountaintop experiences. As christians we have valley experiences. But the good news is that in the Lord our mountaintop experiences will far out weigh the others. 

In everything we do we look to the Lord. if ever there is a time when we feel disconnected or just simply not on fire as we usually are, take that time to pray to God that he may fill your heart and ignite that fire. 

One of my favorite verses to quote and just think back to is Hebrews 12:29 "Our God is a consuming fire!" We are always consumed in his love. But there will most definitely be those times where we feel the fire is not as hot as it should be. All we need to do is look to the Lord and know that we are consumed in his love. He picks us up when we are down and is with us even when we feel that we are alone in all of the stress that we may have.

It is extremely hard not to let all of the little things run our lives. As humans we get so caught up in the planning that we feel obligated to do. We stress ourselves out involving every minute detail. That in itself is how we draw away from God. Where our focus should be on our AMAZING Heavenly Father, our focus is instead on things of this world. 

For we do not belong to this world and the ways of it. We belong to our Lord and Savior who resides in the home of our hearts. We are not home yet. 

And while I can't give you a step by step procedure on how to have a more personal relationship with Jesus, I can tell you that no matter where you are or what you are doing; it is never too late to come home to the one who loves you more than you could possibly even fathom. 

It is so immensely important to take time every day to speak with the Lord and just tell him how much you love him. He loves you so much, even if you feel as though your fire has dimmed in this particular moment. 

The most exciting thing about walking with the Lord is that no matter what you are his beloved. 

Remember that he loves you the very first, last, and of course the best. He knows your name and will come when you call on His. Ultimately the Lord will take away every bad thing in your life until you have gain in him. 

Connecting with God on a personal level is something that never ends. Everyday we grow and want more and he is there always. We need only call on him and he will remind us of his consuming fire and there we can cozy up and be warm and spread that warmth to others. 

New Beginnings Make New Endings

"No one can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending." 

There are so many things that we start and finish. But in that ending there sprouts a new beginning and ending for something else. We don't start over; but we begin again right where we are, making things better in our lives. 

One of my very close friends just recently experienced the end to a relationship. For her this ending is just a moment. She doesn't know what the future holds for her and her guy. In this time she has asked herself; "is he the one?" "was this supposed to happen?" "Why did this happen?" "Why does it hurt so much?" "What is God's plan for me?" We don't know what tomorrow holds for us. Only God knows our beginnings, endings, and everything in between. 

Recently I realized that I don't have everything together and I realized that I am not ok with that. I broke down and I let the Lord know that I need Him. But we aren't supposed to have everything figured out and together. If we did everything would be in it's place and we need the Lord for that. He is in control. He makes the decisions and we trust in Him through all of our ups and downs. 

Through everything we must daily remember to ask the Lord for help, that we may grow deeper in love with Him each day. 1 John 1 says that "From the very first day, we were there, taking it all in--we heard it with our own ears,  saw it with our own eyes, verified it with our own hands." All of our beginnings are mixed in with our ends and with God everything is one long beginning. 

So no matter where we start, what our beginning, the Lord is there. We live through him. And through him our whole life is one long beginning that comes from the end of the worldly things that we don't belong to. 

All of the aspects of our lives, everything that we do has a beginning and an ending, from those beginnings there are endings. Endings bring new beginnings and the Lord is present through all of it. 

The Lord's wisdom is ever present. It is made clear in Proverbs that"For wisdom will enter your heart, and knowledge will be pleasant to your soul." God doesn't leave us or forsake us and He gives us the wisdom to know he is King and that He is in ultimate control. 

It is ok to fear what is going to come from an ending. The Lord has every second of our lives planned out. He has planned for every ending to bring a new beginning and in Him we find our strength and solace. 

"The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and the knowledge of the Holy One is understanding."

The Lord is and will always be present through our beginning, middle, end and no matter what we may be going through or have been through we can always look to him and come home to the house of the Lord. 

Like the story of the prodigal son; whatever we may choose to do in our new beginning, it will never be too late to come home. 

Struggles are moments; little blips in the big story of our lives in Jesus Christ. The ending of this life, we choose to put an end to our attachment to all things worldly that take our focus off of him, figuratively of course, and give everything to Him. Every single moment is planned out by him. So no matter where we are or where we are going there is a plan, and we can Always go home. 

Our home is in The Lord. 

The end in fact is a new beginning. So put your faith and trust in the Lord and know there is a purpose for every moment. 

All Of The Moments...Start And End In Jesus

There are moments,

These moments are pre determined because the  Lord takes so much care in our lives to plan out each and every little thing. The minute details are often the most exciting and important. I love the fact that our lives are a series of moments, moments where the Lord constantly loves us, no matter what.

Some moments in my life...
Finding God in the smallest things,

Like a smile 

A laugh 

The sun 

A question  

Words 

Moments we await... 

Awaiting the moment...That's natural

Wanting a boyfriend, someone to spend time with and be romantically close to

Well of course thats ok and important to want that moment, those moments. But it is not a moment we can choose and plan out for ourselves. There is an amazing someone out there for us. The Lord took careful time in picking them out. As the Lord is growing in our lives, he is growing our hearts to be open to the love of another. It is such a gift. A gift worth waiting for. So as I wait...As we wait...we know God will always be at the center and he will be forever great!

Recently I was given some fabulous words of wisdom that could only have come straight from the Lord, 

"Rest in God's love and the other things will come in His time when you are ready. Remember you don't need an earthly man first and foremost to define you. You are a daughter of the king with all the keys to the kingdom. You are strong in the faith...smart, beautiful, and so much more...God is preparing the perfect match to your needs. Try to be patient... Focus on refining your gifts and following the path He has given you...Just know God has a plan to give you hope and a future.. Don't doubt your significance go Him...He wants nothing but the best for you...Continue glorifying Him in all you do. Be open and ready for all that He has in store. Good things come to those that wait for his perfect timing. Don't let our people's relationships steal your joy. Walk in his love and light. Satan wants to steal your joy distract you and make you doubt. Don't give him the power to bring you down. When you start to feel sad because you don't have a guy just remember...God is hand picking your guy...Don't settle for any guy...Your Prince charming is out there. Trust in the Lord's timing and know that he only has the best plan for you." 

God is so good. His timing is something we will never understand and yet it is everything we will ever need. The moments he plans out for us are exactly what we must go through to get closer and closer to him and his amazing love.

When I look at where I am in my life right now, I am so blessed. We are all so immensely blessed. The moments of today, tomorrow, next month, and 5 years from now are already planned and in that I  know the Lord will be so much more than present throughout them all. 

If ever you are struggling with a moment, you are stuck in a moment you want to move from, just remember that there is a time for everything. In Ecclesiastes 3 it is said; "there is a time to weep and a time to laugh...a time to embrace and a time to refrain...a time to love..." Our Heavenly Father knows what our times, our moments are going to be and that is amazing!!

So why worry about that guy that who can't seem to find you? There might not be any available gentleman that are what you need or what you are meant to have. The timing is simply not right. The Lord knows your heart and your head and all of you. He knows the type of gent you need to be with and that is simply why it is not happening. Not because you are not desirable, because the Lord made you in his image. It is because you are too amazing and grounded in the Lord's love that there is no guy willing to take a chance.God's timing is not right. But it will be. 

Relish the moments. Trust that the moments are perfect. Because they are. Put your trust in the almighty Heavenly Father. For he plans out the moments. I am so in awe when I read psalm 40:5 "The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare." 

Look at the moments of present, for yes the future moments are planned. So don't worry about being single, don't worry about that moment when you think you ruined an audition, that moment you didn't  do so well on a test, the moments that are unknown; those are the most exciting. Those minute moments are all part of God's plan for your life. 

Our lives are a series of carefully planned moments...

We don't plan them 

We trust in the Lord 

His timing is perfect 

His plan for each of us is beyond what we could ever imagine 

Those moments

He planned them

We are infinitely blessed

This moment 

The next 

Forever 

Are all 

In The Lord 

ALWAYS 

"Perhaps  this is the moment for which you were created."  Live it.

Stressing Is A Part Of Life...But It Is Not The Center

Why must we stress? 

There really is no concrete answer to this question "why must we stress?" And yet here we all are stressing over the simplest, most minuscule things in our lives. It is human nature to be stressed in all kinds of ways at different times in our lives. That is something as a race that we cannot seem to get away from, it is inevitable. And yet with the Lord it is so possible. 

God is so good. When we are stressed He wants us to come to Him. "Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens."-Psalm 68:19 Not just once in a while, the Lord bears our burdens DAILY. I don't know about you but I find so much comfort in that. So we are going to get stressed but in the Lord that stress becomes a testament of our love for our Heavenly Father who will never leave us to bear our own burdens. 

So this is midterm week at Meredith and for many, and in particular some of my close friends that can be major stressful. It is possible that you could study for hours on end, stressing yourself out over what? A midterm? When you think about that one college midterm or maybe that one relationship that didn't pan out and you harp on it you stress. But what for? Paul says in Galatians 5 that "Christ has set us free to live a free life. Take a stand and do not let yourselves be burdened again." So instead of succumbing to the stresses of school, relationships, friendships, jobs, commitments; take a stand for Him and do not let yourself be burdened by worldly things. For we are not of the world, we are are not home in the stresses and burdens of worldly things, but instead our home is in the Lord. 

If there is something you are struggling with at this very moment...stop...tell the Lord of your struggle, your stress; and give it up to him and do not let yourself be burdened. The Lord wants us to live a life in Him and be a light to those who do not know of his unfailing love. We should not waste our time stressing over worldly things that do not near compare to our AMAZING, burden-bearing Heavenly Father. 

The next time we begin to stress about some irrelevant worldly thing we must stop and remember we have a wonderful Savior who died for our sins, and daily bears the burdens that we may have a life in Him and His love. We live for him and are a walking light for His love for us. Stress does not touch Him. So therefore stress should not be something we let control our lives. The center of our lives is the Lord and shall forever be. 

We must seek His peace daily by filling our minds with His word, by lifting up our hearts to Him in prayer, and simply sitting at His feet in awe and reverence. For, it is ONLY by His mercy, grace and His never-ending love, that the stress we hold onto so tightly in our lives can be taken away. 

The Lord says, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." What more could we even ask for? We are blessed by Him so immensely. So do not stress dear ones for the Lord almighty is here and always will be. 

Nothing You Could Ever Do Would Make Him Love You Less

It is crazy to think about The Lord's love for us. How could someone so perfect, almighty, beautiful, everlasting, and so much more could love such an imperfect people as us? This is something I think about all the time. It is a constant discussion among my friends and I. The Lord is literally so amazing and present in our lives and yet we are so undeserving.

One of my close friends recently came to know The Lord. Such a relationship is so indescribable. She didn't know before that God was such an amazing and loving God. When we think about it, none of us did and we are so blessed by that fact. I think that is something we often undermine. It is ultimately amazing that no matter what our past may be, however dirty we have felt, how low, that when we accept Christ into our hearts that we are washed clean because he loves us so deeply. This simple fact while so simple is so profound. 

It is normal for us as humans to look back on our past, our sin, and to beat ourselves up about the choices we have made. But the real truth of the matter is that The Lord doesn't look at our sin and judge us. He loves us in our darkest times, in the midst of it all his love is washing over us. His amazing, cleansing love makes us new. Because Jesus took the fall for our sins we are forever blessed. He loves us first, He loves us last, and He loves us the BEST. 

So when we are looking to be loved why look anywhere but to The Lord? He loves us, so deeply, and by his wounds we are healed. Romans 5:8 speaks to these points so beautifully, "But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were sinners, Christ died for us." When I look to this verse my heart fills up with so much love for my amazing Heavenly Father and I am in awe. It is so crazy to know that even while we were sinning "Christ died for us", he died for us. Just a lowly

race of people. 

At our worst. 

There is NOTHING

Absolutely nothing 

That we could EVER do 

to make him love us any less. 

Our perfect Lord died for us when we are so far from perfect. We fail constantly. We sin and The Lord loves us the same. I am so completely overcome by God's great love for me and for all of us. "But you, O Lord, are a compassionate and gracious God, slow to anger, abounding in love and faithfulness."- Psalm 86:15 He is abounding in his love for us always and no matter where we are in our walk with him, no matter what sins we have committed or will commit, he loves us the same and he ALWAYS will. In that we know.... 

There is nothing we could ever do in all of our lives that would cause him to love us any less. 

When the Timing is Right...He Knows

When the timing is right....HE knows.....

It's true. As a college woman or simply even as a race it is hard to grasp the simple fact that The Lord has every moment of our lives planned out. The simple fact that a perfect God would take his time to plan out the lives of such undeserving people is so unbelievable and indescribable. Most days it is hard to grasp that I am so loved by the most high God and that no matter what I do or have done he still loves me the most. 

That being said, you might pray for something to happen in your life, like say finding someone to be in a romantic relationship with. Sometimes no matter how hard you pray to The Lord, now is just not the right time. Do we know when the "right time" will be? Is there anyway we can ask for a sign that the timing is right? 

The answer to all the questions about timing is, He knows. Because The Lord knows, we need only trust him in his amazing plan for our lives. Yes, it is hard to be patient and to wait. But, The Lord asks that we put our trust in him sing his praises and we will be rewarded. Psalm 62:8 says, "Trust him in all TIMES, O people; pour our your hearts to him, for God is our refuge." This is so absolute and so true. We trust The Lord in all of our times because he is the center and HE knows. 

In my personal experience, it means so much more to pray to God giving him thanks for the blessings in your life as opposed to asking him to bless you more and more. We leave the timing and the blessing to God because in all actuality we could not even begin to comprehend his power and utter amazingness. This is not to say that praying for a boyfriend or a love interest, or answers on a subject of timing is wrong. The Lord always listens and he also knows. 

He knows when the timing is right... 

He knows what your best interests are...

He knows how to sustain you...

He knows what you need even when you don't...

He knows your quirks and everything about you, down to the last hair on your head...

He knows your heart...

He knows YOU....

HE LOVES YOU 

ALWAYS 

And there is no place that he would ever want us to be other than his love. I don't know about you all but there is no place I would rather be than right here in his love and his impeccable timing. Because even when  I think I know what is right for me and what I need I don't. HE knows. In that I find peace. "Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you. Show me the way I should go, for to you I lift up my soul." - Psalm 143:8 

As we lift up our souls to The Lord and let him become the center, timing is something we needn't worry about. We put our trust in him that he may show us the way and in that we will find our place in him. Because when the timing is right...he knows. 

Today Is The Day The Lord Has Made Let Us Rejoice!!

Today has been such an amazing day! The Lord and his timing is most definitely so perfect and unexpected! I look forward to every Thursday because though The Lord is present throughout my entire week Thursdays are just such a blessing! Attending the weekly CRU meetings is definitely what my closest friends and I look forward throughout our week of stressful classes. 

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Yesterday I was having a valley day, struggling with my single christian woman status, college classes, friendships, and everything that I could have imagined that could go wrong went wrong. So at the end of the day the only thing I could do was to give it up to The Lord. No problem, issue, or valley day that we may have he is so much bigger and greater than we can even begin to imagine. At the end of the day I went to The Lord in prayer and laid down all my problems at his feet and asked him to pour his cleansing love over me and set my heart at ease with what I had been dealing with and what my friends had been dealing with as well. 

And to my delighted surprise The Lord definitely made this such a wonderful day. We are all so immensely blessed beyond compare and today that was so ever apparent. Tonight my amazing friends and I went to the Vine before CRU which is this wonderful gathering at the manor of the sweetest Christian lady where a group of wonderful Godly women bless us Meredith girls so well by sharing The Lords love with us. Tonights speaker spoke right into my soul and the souls of my friends. Everything that she said we could all relate to. It is so completely and undeniably true that our future is not in our hands but instead of the AMAZING hands of the Father. 

My prayer to The Lord last night on my valley day was answered tonight at the vine and went on into the always exciting and unexpected CRU primetime meeting. The Lord made it clear tonight that the book of James chapter one that speaks of trials and tribulations and surpassing that. The "testing of our faith develops perseverance" and we grow in Him. What more could we want? As we struggle in our lives with whatever it may be we must know that his plan is greater and he is at work in our lives. In James 1:16 it is said "that every good and perfect gift is from above" The Lord does not forget us in our times of struggle he may simply be asking us to wait and giving us exactly what we need at times we would never have imagined. 

It always means so much more when The Lord speaks to you when you least expect it. It comes likes waves, unforced and perfectly timed to His crazy-perfect clock. So I know this week I have had my fair share of valley moments, as have my friends, as I am sure you have as well; but just know The Lord has most definitely not forgotten you he will bless you at the perfect time. 

As I am so full of The Holy Spirit and in reverence at how amazing God's timing is; I pray that you always have faith and trust that The Lord calls all times soon. No matter what the circumstance he has a plan! I heard The Lord loud and clear tonight at The Vine and CRU and for that I am so incredibly full. But it doesn't matter where you hear Him or feel Him in your life. Just simply LISTEN and you will be so amazed and the blessing will be so worth the while. 

I leave you with the word Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you," declares The Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to five you hope and a future." How crazy is it that our perfect Lord has planned our lives out our lives 2 seconds from now to 2 years from now? We are so blessed beyond compare and each day that becomes even more clear in my life. God is so good and perfect in his timing and all of his ways ALWAYS and FOREVER. 

The Background Story

Throughout High School and essentially all of my formative years I had never been that girl who was in relationships. I had actually never been in a relationship. Relationships never actually seemed feasible or necessary at that point in my life. So as a High School christian girl I accepted that The Lord's plan for my life at that moment was to remain single. I never viewed that as a disadvantage or a problem, though it was definitely not always easy.

Watching my friends in their successful and happy relationships definitely made it harder for me to be happy being single. Although my friends were seemingly happy and content with their relationships, I too was happy in the lack thereof. The Lord was, and still is my number one. He is beyond a shadow of a doubt the one I love first and foremost and with all of myself. That in itself is seemingly the most important thing. Before you can even think or dream of being with someone else you need to love God and through him love yourself in the best way to honor him.

I had always viewed relationships seriously. There has never been a time when I wasn't waiting for that "Prince Charming." My Prince Charming, who loves Jesus unconditionally and would come and rescue me from my single christian girl status. In high school I brushed of the fact that I didn't have that AMAZING christian boyfriend who loved Jesus and loved me. I didn't need a guy. I was content. I loved myself because The Lord loves me unconditionally. But all that's not to say that not having a boyfriend and experiencing that isn't extremely hard.

Fast forward to college. I am currently a college woman still loving The Lord and trusting in his plan for my life. Coming to college I never would have imagined that I would make a good number of christian girl friends so quickly, it has been such a blessing and I thank The Lord everyday for that! Needless to say I am still single but I am now fulfilling his purpose for me as a strong woman.

That being said, I never would have imagined how much harder it would be to avoid the "do you have a boyfriend?" conversation. While I love my college setting and my fabulous sisters in Christ it has become so much harder to avoid the fact that I am a single christian woman. Being single in college as a christian woman has its advantages, yet for me as of late it seems to have more disadvantages.  I have found myself, like never before, strongly wishing I had a boyfriend.

Some of my closest friends now are in relationships that I only hope reach the marriage stage long down the road. And then there is me. A single christian woman waiting for that single christian guy to come along. A single christian guy whom The Lord has intended for me. It seems as though now more than ever that has become of a high importance to me. Going from independent and happy in high school to single and waiting in college is something that I am adjusting to.

The Lord's timing is something that is so perfect and yet so unknown at the same time.

So as a single christian woman in college, it becomes even more real as the years go by and you grow in The Lord that you're very own Prince Charming is out there. You may not know who he is, you most likely don't. But that is expected and that is okay because The Lord has a plan and he loves you more than you can ever even imagine. Of course it gets hard at times being single, I know I go through that irrational struggle more than I ever should. Because the fact is The Lord's plan for you romantically is out of your control. As we live each day when simply trust and live in faith that it will all work out.

I know that personally when I read, Song of Songs 3:5 "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires" The Lord is working in my life and that of my future beloved.

At this point in my life and always my beloved is Jesus. But somewhere there is my Prince Charming, your very own Prince Charming that The Lord made for you. Patience and trust in God is what we need. No matter the valley or the loneliness you feel regarding your single christian woman status, the college influence, there is nothing greater than God's love for you and his plan for your life and your love.

We are so immensely blessed by our King, we needn't fret over not having a Prince quite yet. The Lord calls all times soon and soon enough you Princess will have your Prince.